I think I’m falling for someone I can’t have. I sorta dont like the feeling. I told him I dont want relationships but everytime I talk to him or text him or read old texts I cant help but hope- even if I don’t want to. I think he knows, but I dont know if he’ll take me seriously. It’s weird, but I want to make him happy again.

Everyone just wants happiness right? So why dwell in pain? You think that “it takes time to heal,” but that time that you waste- you’ll never get it back. So why waste time and effort. You can’t dwell in the things that makes you sad cause its the last thing you would want.

Welcome all. This is going to be annoying hearing or reading my words in your dash. This is nothing serious but just a small series of entries I’m starting to do. It’s my journal. Hopefully one day I can gather all of these and print all the pages out and put it in a folder to remember.

2012 has begun and I think its going to be hard trying to explain how my last year was. Before you start reading everything you must know what my current situations are:

• I can honestly say no one can understand my situation. Some people may understand a little but no one really can FULLY understand me.
• My 20 year old brother left me so now I’m stuck home with the people who adopted me.
• I’ve gained “friends” and lost my friends during the summer.
• Roller coaster ride with my ex, not him. Just me. Unsolved feelings.
• Failing classes.

These bullets would lead your mind throughout my written series.